March Newsletter

Hi everyone!

I hope you are doing well, feeling peaceful and finding silver linings.

I know I know I missed sending the February newsletter. I just kept putting it off and then suddenly the month was over! But I'll hopefully make up for it with this one. It's a bit of a history and culture edition! I'll be sharing some of my thoughts on an amazing discussion on the last remaining temple dancers of the Jagganath Temple in Puri, Odisha. And a bit of news on a new role I've taken on!

Re-Cognising Dance: Rituals of the Devadasis of Puri, with Prof. Frederique-Apffel Marglin

This was an absolutely incredible discussion organised by Re-Cognising Dance, a platform developed over the last year that aims to create a safe space for learning, discussion and dialogue on dance (specifically South Asian/Indian classical dance). This particular discussion was about the rituals of the devadasis of Puri.

I'm not a scholar on the subject I'm about to try and explain in a nutshell, so apologies for any mistakes I might make when trying to communicate! It's a pretty big subject with regional variations.

If you're not familiar with the term, devadasis were a historic tradition in some temples in India. They were women and girls that were adopted by specific temples, and through ritual ceremonies would be 'married' to the deity of that temple. They were an intrinsic part of the temple worship rituals, singing and dancing as part of them. In the Jagganath temple in Odisha, the devadasis (or Maharis as they were also called) formed a core part of the daily rituals since at least the 12th Century, continuously till the 1960s/70s.

The discussion was with Prof. Frederique-Apffel Marglin, who carried out field research in the early 1970s on the last remaining maharis. This was so exciting!!! I'd read her book 'Wives of the God-King' years ago early in my odissi journey - it didn't occur to me she might still be around to talk about it! πŸ€¦πŸ½β€β™€οΈ Anyway the ensuing discussion really had me hanging on every word.

If you want to watch the whole talk you can find it here:

The full documentary they share an excerpt of is on their YouTube channel as well.

Some of the points of the discussion that I found particularly interesting/got me thinking were:

  • The decline of the tradition was actually nothing directly to do with the British (according to Prof Frederique), though perhaps could be linked to a colonial gaze that was taken on by the state government of Odisha, who discouraged it. And that the Jagganath temple did not actually fall under the 1947 Devadasi Act, which outlawed the dedication of girls to temple service.

  • The big concept that I think was kind of the pillar theme was that auspiciousness is different from purity. It was so interesting to understand that in a bit more detail, since western theory conflates the two. "Things that generate life and kingdom come from auspiciousness. Yet these are often also impure."

  • Also this idea around purity maintaining order was really interesting and not one I had considered before.

  • Also at the end, the discussion around how dance gives access to 'bhoga shakti'/connection to bhogam and not mokshya (liberation in the yogic sense) was super interesting. I had just come across the term bhoga for the first time in a yoga book I was reading in the week before the talk, and it talked about it in quite a negative sense (bhoga asana - focusing on the sensory pleasure of doing asana, which is not what traditional yoga wants you to do!). But in this context bhogam was about embodiment (through the senses - from what I understand). Which makes so much sense because that is what we are trying to achieve actually in odissi dance! And then it was said that in the tantric tradition, moksha and bhogam are one. And again to me this makes so much sense. We work so hard in our dance at embodiment, and I never could quite make that smooth link between how this intense work on embodiment leads to mokshya, which always seems to be about withdrawing from the body.

Gosh it was just all SO GOOD, I mean there was so much more to it than I captured in these few bullet points here. I would highly recommend listening to the discussion if it is something you are interested in. I can't explain why really, but this subject just gets my entire being fully engaged. I experience this sensation of being so alert and trying to become like a sponge to soak in the history and tradition as much as I can. I feel so desperate to know everything about it. I can't explain why really.

The reality though is that this form of devotional servitude no longer has a place in our modern world. We can't go back to this time and I am not sure if I would want us to - the world's value system has changed too much and we have become more and more aware of the risks and realities of exploitation. But it is heartbreaking nonetheless that this living link is all but lost now. I'm so grateful to Prof Frederique for carrying out this research and capturing some remnants of it at least.

If you are interested in reading the book, you can read the online PDF here: http://oaob.nitrkl.ac.in/210/2/Wives_of_The_God-King.pdf
It is unfortunately out of print!

I'd love to hear from you if you've read the book or listened to the talk! What were your big take-aways? What hit deeply for you?

New Dance Role!
I'm super happy to share that this week I started as Outreach Project Co-ordinator for the Centre for Advanced Training (CAT) Yuva Gati programme! This is with the DanceXchange CAT in Birmingham.

Centres for Advanced Training (CATs) in dance are funded by the Department of Education, and are found across the UK. They help to identify and assist young people with exceptional potential, who can then benefit from world-class specialist training as part of a broader dance education.

The DanceXchange CAT in Birmingham runs the national South Asian Dance programme - Yuva Gati. I've been brought in to deliver the outreach programme to make sure we maximise engagement and reach for the September 2021 intake.

If you feel like reading more about it have a look here: https://www.dancexchange.org.uk/programmes/yuva-gati/

Exciting right?! What an amazing opportunity to support the development of the next generation of South Asian dancers in the UK.

Till next time...

That's everything for this month! I'll try not to leave April's newsletter to the final hour πŸ˜…

Hope you are feeling the bloom of spring in your bones!

Warm wishes,
Maryam

December Newsletter

Seasons greetings everyone!

I hope that whatever the circumstances, you have been finding a sense of peace and happiness in this festive period πŸ’›

I was planning on sending out this newsletter yesterday, but had a feeling of not really knowing what I wanted to say and share with you all. But yesterday evening a phrase came up which really struck me.

Structural change.

I had a moment last night where I felt like I am experiencing this on a deep level. Like some kind of fundamental shift is happening, refocusing where I am placing my energy in life (and dance). And a sense that this shift has only been possible because of this extended break from the normal routine of life.

I also feel like this structural change is being experienced by many people, if not near everyone, in many different ways.

It makes me think of my first trip to India in 2009. When I was choosing how long to go for, I picked 5 months out of the air (no idea why it just sounded about right...!). And something interesting started to happen at around the 3-4 month mark. It was enough time away from home, in a totally different environment and routine, to be able to look at my life back home with a sense of detachment and clarity. To really think about what my values were and what was important to me in life. And to make clearer decisions about the choices I would make moving forward when I went back home.

(Reading a lot of philosophy books definitely played into this all!)

It was in that state that I discovered odissi and was able to mentally re-orientate my life towards it.

Now I'm not saying we all have to go to India for months at a time to discover our life purpose πŸ˜‚ But it taught me the power of having extended periods of time away from what has become 'normal' to us. It taught me that sometimes it takes breaking away from routine for literally months for our true path or what truly matters to reveal itself to us. Things that just wouldn't have been revealed if we had carried on as things had been. It taught me that sometimes we need to create space for real change to occur.

This pandemic has been many things, but I feel like in many ways it has been a precursor for structural change, snapping almost all of us out of our usual routines and changing the dynamic of society. It has created a new space for all of us to live in, for over 7 months. This new space has been playing out in so many ways, on individual as well as global levels. I do feel in some ways like we are on the brink of significant positive changes, which I sincerely hope come to fruition.

Have you been experiencing a sense of structural change or similar? Perhaps internally or perhaps on a day to day level? I'd love to hear from you πŸ₯°

The Lotus in Eastern Thought

On a slightly different note, here is a lotus flower:

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If you have even a passing familiarity with any Eastern texts/imagery, you may have noticed the lotus as a recurring theme. Whether it's used as a descriptive tool for gods and goddesses (describing lotus eyes, hands, feet etc), to symbolise energetic fields in the body, or any other of the myriad ways in which the lotus appears. Maybe you wondered of all flowers, why the lotus? Why is this the one flower we always refer to?

The lotus has particular significance as it is rooted in the mud of lakes and rivers. And even when the water is murky, it pushes upwards till the surface is broken. Where a most beautiful flower then blooms under the light of the sun! And it is this parallel with the human condition that makes the lotus one of the principal symbols used throughout Eastern religions/philosophies/art.  

Keep an eye out for the lotus, and take a moment to smile inside whenever you see it πŸ˜Š

Till next time...

Thank you for reading πŸ₯° Wishing you all a wonderful last few days of 2020, and good cheer and fortune going into 2021!

Warm wishes,
Maryam πŸ’—

The Mirror : Darpana

The darpana pose is seen everywhere in odissi. The woman looking at her reflection in the mirror. It represents many things. With a modern superficial lens, we might see vanity. But if we look a little deeper, it unfolds. To see the beauty in yourself, to recognise the divinity in your own eyes, and to take pleasure in that experience.

Somehow in this moment, in this picture, something clicked. But actually in my dance journey, this is a pose I have had trouble with. How to find that internal state to be able to hold this feeling for more than a fleeting moment. I had to really look at myself (metaphorically!) to deconstruct what was going on. And to put myself back together believing what I saw. .

It’s all such a process. There’s a movement around embodiment yoga growing, and to me this dance hits the absolute bullseye of what embodied yoga is. The mental, emotional and physical deconstruction you experience, and the sublime and solid framework you are put back together in. Oh and you get to dance while doing it!


Photo taken @ncpamumbai during a dance photography workshop 😊 #odissi#darpana #indianclassicaldance #maryamshakiba #embodiedyoga#yogaofdance #reflections#metaphorsforlife #indiandance#indianclassicaldance #incredibleindia

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Dancing into liberation and fulfilment

This is one of my favourite quotes, and it really captures everything I feel about dance and my practice.

"In the Indian tradition, dance is a means of gaining liberation through sadhana or the discipline required to perfect it. And it is in this constant attempt to express the core of all human emotion. from joy and passion to anger and fury, through the gestures and movements of the human body, that offers the path to creative and spiritual fulfilment."

- Shringara, by Alka Pande

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Jayadeva & Radha

Setting the scene...

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I've been reading the most wonderful book over the last few months; Radha, from Gopi to Goddess. It's part of my morning reading ritual, where, when I can stay at home and not have to rush anywhere first thing, I enjoy sitting down with a tankard of herbal tea and reading on the sofa.

The book is a collection of essays compiled (and some written) by Harsha V. Dehejia, exploring the concept of Radha through history. Be it through poetry, painting, historical research, dance etc. Super interesting!

My morning reading books are always ones that require a bit more concentration and contemplation, so ones that aren't well suited to a commute on the tube. Also books that are a bit too big to carry in my bag make it into my morning reading :P  They take a bit of time to finish these days... as for various reasons my quiet mornings have fallen in number a little. But it's been a haven of a ritual I've developed over the last couple of years, and every time I'm able to enter it, I feel like I'm entering a space where I can be quiet and absorb new knowledge and savour the nourishment that peaceful mornings and learning brings.

Also I'll happily confess that I'm not a super early morning person and sometimes morning reading time doesn't start till after 10am :P

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The main man - Jayadeva!

So while I've been learning soooo many things in this book, one of the things that hit home recently is how instrumental Jayadeva was in the creation of Radha. As in, he essentially wrote her into existence.

Bit of a nutshell background for those not familiar - Jayadeva was a 12th century Indian poet, who is best known for writing the epic love song about Radha & Krishna - the Gita Govinda.

Krishna is considered to be a form of Lord Vishnu (sustaining force of the universe - part of the core 'creator-sustainer-destroyer' trinity of Hinduism made up of Brahma, Vishnu and Shiva). In the stories, Vishnu in his godly form never enters our physical realm, but he does enter our world in the form of a number of avatars, of which Krishna is one.

Radha in comparison, is a mere mortal. A gopi (milkmaid) in the village of Vrindavan, where Krishna also spends his youthful years. And yes, Vrindavan is an actual place in India :) 

While Vrindavan is full of gopis who all love Krishna (who can blame them - his beauty and charm and skill with which he plays the bansuri (Indian flute) are stuff of legend), and while Krishna enjoys engaging in amorous games of love with them... there is also one gopi who he loves the most - Radha. And it is their relationship that the Gita Govinda explores. The passion, the longing, the jealousy, the betrayal, the ecstasy of union. She represents every woman, every stage of love on the one hand, and represents the relationship between us as mortals and the divine on the other.

There's a whole world of themes and topics to explore and discuss here, hence it has inspired centuries worth of art, poetry, music, dance, contemplation and devotional practice. I'm not going to even try and get any deeper than I have just done! But it was so fascinating to think about how actually before Jayadeva wrote his poem, the idea of Radha as a standalone and developed character did not exist. There is mention in part of an older text of a favoured gopi, but she isn't afforded more than one line of text really.

So for me it was wonderful to take a moment to give thanks to Jayadeva for bringing Radha to life through his writing. For creating the space for such a rich world of love, devotion and beauty to grow. For giving us an embodiment through which we could discover our hearts and souls. 

~ Jai Jayadeva! ~

Artwork by Vekkas M

Artwork by Vekkas M

Fertile Carriers

Over the weekend I had a period where I was thinking about what it really means to be a fertile woman in this current age and culture. One in which more women are choosing not to have children, or not have children till later.

So I was pondering this question.

How to be fertile carriers of this earth without physically giving birth.

How to cultivate and embody the earth, and the gifts and lessons it gives us.

How to experience a sense of fulfilment and completion in that.

I feel like a lot of my own practices have been leading me to this point. I feel like yoga has given me super effective tools to develop this connection to the earth and life force energy that we are all bearers of. And I feel like odissi has given me further super effective tools to shape and fill this connection into one which is powerful, luscious and exquisite. It’s amazing to be able to create the space to feel all those colours within ourselves. 

I feel sometimes in the broader sense, stepping back from my own specific practices, that that is what my life work is building (slowly). Not to say I will never have children (be at ease, womb!), but to be finding a sense of love, enjoyment, fulfilment and peace in my body and, by proxy, the earth. And to communicate that sense to others in the best way I can. Embodying the lessons I have learnt, if not in another human being, in myself. 

Kamatala Festival 2015 Odissi Workshop

This is an adapted choreography I taught as part of my Divinity of Dance workshop at Kamatala Festival, July 2015, Exeter, UK.

It is a simplified excerpt from Hari Riha Mughda, a storytelling item, exploring the play between Krishna and the Gopis (milkmaids). In the workshop we were exploring various themes, one of which is the idea that through devotion to Krishna and the acting out of his past-times, we experience liberation of the soul.

Thank you to Namrata Dhawan for sharing this video she took of me! It is a bit shadowy... I forgot to take into account the light behind me! <3 

Music: Water Girl by Zakir Hussain